i can't be here

i can't be here
there is no moment i want to survive
'cause i cannot be here
the moment i
walked in alive

i never had decided to recognize myself
i never knew when to appear
but i cannot be here

because i don't know where
i had no choice whether to go or to stay
because i do not know where
the reason i
ran away

there was less than a message
there was rarely a word
there was barely enough heard to say
that i cannot be here

it's a cold contridiction
for it all to be alive
and a cold hard fiction
for yourself to survive
this terrible frustration
lar-ger than your mind
through all this frustration
it's impossible to find..........

that i cannot be here
i'm afraid that i have nothing left 
left to hide

that i cannot be here
the moment i
stepped inside

the angels have settled
the demons have slept
the relatives are dead and bereft
and cannot be here

and i don't know why
there is no hell that is 
left to test me
because i don't know why
the moment i
did my best to try

nothing is longer than the worst of yourself
i could have used a little bit more help
and it can not be here

and i don't know how
life somehow manages to take you astray
and then i don't know how
the moment i
wandered away

there is something significant
and true to itself
that takes away from every day
but i don't know how

and i can't be here
i cannot be here
i am nowhere
somewhere else
mostly gone
put to pasture
moving on

[wandering off piano]

and i can't be here

i can't be here

i can't be here

i can't be here